I am sorry my conscience called in sick again.

They call kids like us vicious and carved out of stone
But for what we become, we just feel more alone.

I have found a reccent love of Lyrics. I mean flyleaf are like =O atm =) Completly awesome. That was an FOB quote, which having read someone elses blog post seems true =). Vicious and carved out of stone, feeling more alone...It kinda fits =)

Im kinda mixed completly with who and what i am at the moment.
Im a christian girl, dedicated to God and helping other people. I pray, i have an okay knowledge of the bible, I'll stand up for it in RE.
But Im also a teenager, experiencing new things, new thoughts and feelings. And they dont really match up to who I want to be, who I think I am or who I should be.
But then i dont know which is me. Am i the girl who will laugh at sexual jokes and innuendoes, do things she shouldnt enjoy, or am I the girl with the pastoral side who has God within her?

So confused.

But i guess thats what a teenager is all about, working out who i am =( I need soul survivor. It made more sense last year.
But again, im conflicted =P I know what happened with Roseanna, I know the pain she went through when she fought God every step of the way. But i know the pain I went through last year, when i didnt have so much to deal with, when i was more or less okay. I saw the pain when Rach let him in. What the hell do i do? Run? Let him in? Fight? Arghhhh. Scared.


And im really worried about Fee. And Lanni. And arghh.

Grr.
Sucks =(

Loveage x